I should have stopped everything then.

Instead, I convinced myself the next time would be different.

The next time was the porch.

My mother’s whisper made my children outsiders in under five seconds, and suddenly every excuse I had made for years looked humiliating in the clear afternoon light. I saw the good plates inside. I saw Melissa’s new Audi at the curb, the one my mother had insisted she could never help pay for. I saw the cheesecake box trembling slightly in Tyler’s hands.